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Maiara Musings

"Problems can not be solved by the level of awareness that created them" Albert Einstein

Time - we all have it.....Picture taken by Maiara

Hi Everyone,

It is Sunday already, how does the time fly? I have to say that I am not a poet, nor do I have any intentions to become one for my love for writing lies in essays, and the dream of writing would be that of many, to write a book one day. Writing something like a novel seems very far-fetched for me because I simply have no extra time at all and probably I have no skills for it either, although who knows, life works mysterious ways. However, sometimes this feeling of writing a poem descends over me and I have no choice but to write it down. In this particular case I was having my early morning tea before work on the local coffee shop when I just had to write poem about time. I realized how paradoxical is it that I claim not having time whereas some other very distinguished and highly achieved individuals seem to have all the time in the world to create wonderful works. Yet, as it stands still as this morning; we all have exactly the same amount of time on our disposal.

The need to redefine time in my life as it used to be became very important after two things that happened in my life: First, after hours of secretly looking information about abuse I came upon the book that opened up my eyes. I realized that I am indeed all right and that it is my husband (at that time, since I am separated now) is a Narcissist and that I have been in emotionally abusive relationship for over two decades without knowing it. All I ever knew was that my mental and physical health kept deteriorating year after year no matter how hard I tried. And as a result the second occurrence happened to me that truly changed my view of the world. I actually got sick, I ran from one specialist to another and they kept finding more and more things off in my body, however the defining moment was that of my thyroid surgeon telling me that I have cancer. At that moment the time stood still and I saw the world in different eyes. For your information everything turned out good, since the cancer did not spread and after two surgeries I am completely cancer free, although there is still the lung surgeon keeping track of the thing on my lungs, but after several cat scans and some time passing my doctor has assured me that likelihood of it turning to lung cancer are getting less and less as time passes. This is a background for this poem and I hope that  if nothing else this will give you something to think about for the coming week.

Yours Truly, Maiara

TIME – a Poem, written by KKMaiaraM

Time

Past, Current, Future

Gone

Time

Regrets, Anxieties, Plans

Gone

Time

I wish, Tomorrow, For Sure

Gone

Time

Rainy, Cloudy, Sunny

Gone

Time

Wasn’t right, Isn’t right, Won’t be right

Gone

Gone is my childhood

Gone is my innocence

Gone is my past

Gone is my marriage

Time

It passed


Illness, Misfortune, Disaster

Time

Is Still

Hope, Love, Dream

Time

It changed

Time

I have It

Time

Now I know

Time

I will use it

Wisely

Time

Gone

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